August 8, 2009

Summer is moving fast.  There has been an unusually cool and rainy July.  The hot day have returned for August and the temperature is nearly 100 today.  I have stayed close to the air conditioner.  I have watched Anne of Green Gables movies as I read the books.  I guess I am a dreamer like Anne.  I have always searched for the perfect world.  If that is all one can see,  then one will be very disappointed.  Life has many ups and downs.    I still enjoy the sweet love stories that play in the dreamer's mind.

   I have spent several days nursing my broken foot .  The one thing that seems to help is the swimming pool.  My foot always feels better when I have been in the water for   at least an hour.

    As the summer disappears, school days near.  I  cried when I retired and have given away all my teaching materials and projects.  I now feel that I have nothing.  There is nothing that I can do, because that is all I know to do.  Besides, there are no jobs for old people.  I feel as if a part of my heart has been ripped away.  I am still hoping that my hurt will ease soon.  I know that the wound will heal as do all wounds.  I will accept this because I have no choice.    

Retired

Newly retired--now what?  I've worked all my life from the cotton fields of Arkansas to the classroom.  I have a lot emotions .  I hate growing old.  I hate not feeling like doing the job I formly loved. Why does the world seem to be closing in on me?  Maybe tomorrow will be a better day for me.